I have a strong relationship with God. I was taught that if I loved him with all of my heart he would love me back. I was taught that God doesn’t make mistakes and he creates everyone the way he planned. I have struggled a lot over the last 6 years after coming out with how God views me. I forced myself to date boys in high school. I even left my girlfriend when I went to college to try to force myself to start over and be straight. One day I realized that God created me this way. He would not want me to suffer for the rest of my life by marrying a man (unfair to him as well) if my heart was not in it. Why did I try so incredibly hard to please this idea of being what I thought he wanted? Because of a book. Because of a book written thousands of years ago by many different people that has been re translated more times to count. I am a STRONG believer in God and everything that he stands for. Yet, I don’t understand how people can be so judgmental and get to tell me that the way I was born is a sin in Gods eyes. Have you ever met him? Were you standing there when they wrote the bible? No. None of us were. And none of us should be allowed to tell others that the way they were created is wrong. If you know someone that is gay. Realize no one would go through this if they had the choice. Do not tell them you will help them get through this, we will pray the gay away, or God will forgive their sin. Love them for who they are. Make them feel like they have nothing to be ashamed of. Because they don’t. And either do you for the choices you make, that this 21st century bible, might say is wrong. Love who you are, and love God. That’s all that matters.

Time to start living in the present and I’m starting by giving you all a low down on my idea for my new channel. I hope you all like the direction of it! It’s simple and just me. 

I think the title says it all…. enjoy

First new video :) i’m exhausted and sleepy haha so dont judge what I look like. butttt here ya know :)

ready? go ;) 

I will do all that I can to stop. To not look for information on you. To not care who you are dating or what you’re doing. So far the person you’ve turned into is not someone I thought was there. Maybe that’s my fault? But the person I knew is gone. I will continue to tell myself that until one day I will wake up and truly not care. 

This hopefully will be one of my last sad/melodramatic posts about the break up.

Letting go, and living on.

Stay fearless right? :)

Thanks for giving me a place to breathe tumblr. 

I will do an hour long twitter Q&A!!! Nothing off limits! 

I’m going to see quinn tomorrow. Can you tell???!!!!